I just reached the epilogue. It’s not just a chapter in my life closing. It’s the end of this particular book. Chris has a new girlfriend. It’s taken him 3 weeks to finally tell me even though I knew from the start anyway. All the avoiding me shit he does, it’s always for the same [...]

I’ve found myself back at this place again. I don’t have any friends. I know people will now appear with “I’m your friend!” and “what? Don’t I count?” so maybe I should clarify it a bit. I have no really close friends, no best friend. Not any more. All I really have are a bunch [...]

I’ve been depressed again the last couple of days. No real reason for it at all. I just want a big hug and to be told everything will be OK. My weekends right now are awesome, fun-packed. But the weeks… the weeks are bad. It’s getting worse. I know this is just because I’m leaving [...]

The past weekend it has to be said, was pretty fucking good. Sunday had a bit of an “arghhh!” moment, but once I calmed down things worked out cool. Saw 300. It’s a good film, but it’s also an awful film. For pretty fight scenes it’s great. For dialogue and un-cheezeyness… it’s rubbish! I pissed [...]

Any Reading people going to the Oakford on Sunday?

It’s really weird how the one thing you spend so long fearing the most. The one thing that keeps you awake at night, terrified. Is actually the one thing that makes everything better. Things are still far from perfect, but I think something just opened up a whole new possibility. Something that hadn’t really been [...]

The ‘spoon’ thing really disturbs me… http://www.randomsalad.com/go/how-to-wipe-your-ass/

I’ve done pretty well so far in not venting my frustration and sadness about ‘the breakup’, but tonight was the last fucking straw. It is safe to say I did not want to split up. I thought it was worth working at. Chris, however, just couldn’t be bothered. I guess he knew he didn’t love [...]

Yesterday things were looking up. I had my Wii, I’d made a cake, I had a day off work, I had plans for the weekend. Most importantly though, I’d been offered redundancy at work. I’ve been on TUPE since I started with IBM because I knew redundancies were coming up and the Civil Service package [...]