Nothing makes sense anymore. I don't know who I am. This can’t be me anymore. Am I really the person leaving their secure job to do god knows what? Am I really the person getting their first passport? Am I really the person booking holidays? This isn’t me. I’ll wake up soon. I probably shouldn’t [...]

I’ve been depressed again the last couple of days. No real reason for it at all. I just want a big hug and to be told everything will be OK. My weekends right now are awesome, fun-packed. But the weeks… the weeks are bad. It’s getting worse. I know this is just because I’m leaving [...]

Yesterday things were looking up. I had my Wii, I’d made a cake, I had a day off work, I had plans for the weekend. Most importantly though, I’d been offered redundancy at work. I’ve been on TUPE since I started with IBM because I knew redundancies were coming up and the Civil Service package [...]

…has been getting in the way of blogging lately. I’m just so busy all the time. I don’t have much to show for it though, so it’s making it all a tad annoying. At work I’m currently scripting and testing the roll-out of XP SP2. As soon as the end of life of XP SP1a [...]

Work is very busy, but very dull right now. I’m Call manager all week which basically just means I have to go through all the calls that come in and assign them out to people and deal with any shit. Joy :o( I’m just not in the mood for it this week. The Clearasil seems [...]

Badness has happened, really, really bad badness. Of the kind that is bad. Totally bad. The Agency I’m working for may no longer be making people redundant…. this is after I declined the first wave of redundancies and was promised the 2006/7 redundancy even after TUPEing across to IBM (it would have been in excess [...]

I am sooo bored at work today. *yawn* I used my Mircodermabrasion kit for the second time last night and my skin already feels better :oD I’m so pleased I haven’t turned out to be allergic to it, when I realised it was aluminium oxide in it I was quite worried. I used my Mum’s [...]

Really should have updated ages ago, but my phone line is being an arse :o( Reading Festival was a good laugh again. Didn’t see a huge amount of bands, but Lemon Jelly Satanic Bingo was the funniest thing I’ve seen in ages, even when no-one won for a very long time! Queens of the Stone [...]

I just phone Fantasy Weapons, apparently I shouldn’t expect my dagger until the 12th of August. FFS. They said they take the money as soon as they order from America…. and then it sits in Customs for a while….. great…. so I may as well have ordered it from the States myself. On the good [...]

Off work at the moment, full of an evil cold. It’s so annoying how I always seem to get ill on Friday nights/the weekend. I figure I’ll have at least today and tomorrow off work for this. I’m having trouble sleeping as my throat is so swollen. Lying down hurts loads and I’m like some [...]