Sadness & Self-Loathing

Why does this keep coming back? I have absolutely no reason to feel so shit, but all I can do right now is cry & get angry at myself.

I go out, fake being happy, then come home wondering what the point of anything is any more. It’s all just darkness and shit.

Wow, how emo am I.

I can only assume this is in some way hormonal/chemical because there really is nothing bad happening to me at the moment. Yes I’m being let down a lot, but what’s new. You can never trust anyone except yourself… and I’m a fucking brilliant liar.