La Fée Verte

I’m going to leave this post sounding cryptic. People that know this part of me, the heart of me, will know what it means. If I try to explain I will sound incredibly pretentious and gerhay… k?

I want Sadie back. I miss her. The faerie is with me again tonight and I missed that too. It’s not even how I remembered.

I spent last night drinking Guylian liquer and listening to old skool gangsta rap to see if the world would explode…

…it didn’t.

Maybe it’s the time of year. Maybe it’s just cos I’m old & fat. Maybe it’s because I’m useless.

Or maybe, just maybe… it’s because I’ve been watching too much Heroes. Nikki reminds me how much I’d love to see Sadie smiling back at me. To swap places again. To not be me.

I think I lost her and I’m too scared to go looking at the bottom of black hair dye bottles.